Tuesday, March 30 We didn’t get a chance to post Monday’s blog yet (it’s now Tuesday 6:35PM our time) so we will post Monday and Tuesday at the same time. My , what a difference a day makes. A new list of obstacles making this whole ordeal look impossible to accomplish. John and I talked about not blogging today – and just leave folks with the “isn’t that so sweet” post from Monday afternoon’s visit. This whole process is the pits. They have shown us a boy, Kirill, and now it looks as if it will be very difficult process to have a judge in court say “yes” to. And he is old enough to know that he is spending time with us because we want him to be a part of our family. He is old enough at 5 years or age to know.
It looks like our best chance to have success in court is for us to be able to locate this boy’s birthmother who has not been seen since last July. Again, we will leave out any further details but I just have to say that I am feeling much like I did about a month after Brady was born when things started quieting down and people quit coming around and I felt like the Enemy was saying, “What are you going to do once people STOP praying?” Fear and doubt are creeping in. We are so tired. This has been a 31 plus month nightmare and the end does not appear to be in sight. What we are looking at now is continuing to bond and enjoy this little boy (who is referring to us to others as mama and papa) for another 9 or 10 days, wait for however long they say wait, and go to court where there is a great chance that this judge will deny our request to adopt. But how do you work at something for this long, investing so much emotionally and financially and QUIT when there is still some possibility of a good outcome?
On a lighter note (I’m not feeling “light” but John thought it would be a good addition) we did meet a new interpreter who looks like Cameron Diaz that may be replacing Zhanat. Gulnara seems to have a better working relationship with her since she has more experience in doing international adoptions. She offerred to take us to church on Easter Sunday so that is something we can look forward to. Sorry to be so hum-drum in my writing. We are missing our family at home and wondering what all of this is for? We covet your prayers.